No, I'm not ok.

At last, You replied,
But I don't know how to reply.
It is certainly not what I wanted to hear.

I typed, but stoned.
Afraid that it would gone worse.
What should I say?
I don't know how to answer your questions,
because I don't understand myself either.
The act that I've committed,
I can't undo it or erase it off your petite mind.
I can't change anything that has happened.
But to just keep my finger crossed,
hoping that you'll put it on.

There are a lot of things running in my mind.
I might break down anytime.
maybe later, maybe when I see you, or maybe not.
But I hope not.

我败给了我自己
我也败给了你
我对不起你
我对不起我自己
我对不起我身边的每一个人
我第一次说这么多次对不起
除了对不起，我还能说什么？
对不起。。。
Sorry . . .
Maafkanlah saya...
죄송합니다
ごめんね

I'm so so so sorry, I didn't mean to break your heart.

Apologies

It took me quite a long time to press send. I did pressed twice, but I cancelled sending. I'm afraid that I'll get an answer that I least want to hear. But I did send it at the end. Hoping that you'll talk to me again.

My confession:

I'm very sorry of what I've done wrong. I realise that this might cost our friendship. I can't afford to lose you. Please come back to me. You have already became part of my life. Losing you is like losing a piece of my heart. I promise you, I will never ever do it again, NEVER. PLEASE FORGIVE ME. I love you.

Love,
Vege

如果我们之间有1000步的距离
你只要跨出第1步　　
我就会朝你的方向走其余的999步
　　
　　

　　
　 通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人　　
　 　才是真正爱你的人

　　

　　
　　 付出真心　才会得到真心　　
　　　 却也可能伤得彻底　　
　　 　保持距离　就能保护自己　　
　 　　却也注定永远寂寞

　　

　　

　　有时候　不是对方不在乎你　　
　　而是你把对方看得太重

　　

　　
　　朋友就是把你看透了
还能喜欢你的人
　　

　　

　　就算是believe　中间也藏了一个lie

　　

　　
　　 真正的好朋友　　
　　并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题　　
　 　而是在一起　就算不说话　　
　　 也不会感到尴尬
　　

　没有一百分的另一半　　
　只有五十分的两个人

　　

　　
　　为你的难过而快乐的　是敌人　　
　　为你的快乐而快乐的　是朋友　　
　　为你的难过而难过的　　
　　就是那些　该放进心里的人
　　

　　

冷漠　有时候并不是无情　　
　　只是一种避免被伤害的工具

Happy CNY!

It's Chinese New Year!!! Shoo away those rats and let the cows/bulls/ox to come in! Make way for the Moo Moo's~ (:
I guess almost everyone received tons of CNY greetings from their friends, because I asked them to! Haha. So I've already said what to be said thru the sms-es. Not gonna be long winded here.

Last but not least,

Happy Chinese Ox Year!

牛年快乐！
恭喜发财！
万事如意！

Im too lazy to blog.



Short update:
College started. Classes everyday from Monday to Friday. Assignments and projects.
Another internship in less than 3 months time. I am clueless of where to go. Help!

-The End-

Merry belated X'mas and have a blissful 2009!

First of all, I wanna wish all of you:

A belated 1 of course ;p

I know... Christmas was looooong time ago. I was busy... watching 命中注定我爱你. Hehe. And always go out with friends ma. It was like free from jail after I suddenly end my internship at Concorde Hotel.

WTH!!! My lil brother said this at dinner just now:" Why Er Jie(2nd sister-me) so fat 1?" I was like "WHAT?!?!?!" So I determined to go on a non-strict diet sun bian cut down on usage of money. Meaning not more than 3 meals a day, less food more water, sleep earlier, more exercise, esp tummy exercise. HOPEFULLY I can follow it la huh... I am fat *sobbbb* T.T

Tomorrow would be the first day of school/ classes for most of the students like me, I assume. So best of luck people (: New year new resolution. Don't play play!


p/s: Updates will be coming soon. If you're interested, stay tuned. (: